SR GR superstring BHs XDDD
Thursday, January 25, 2007
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
colorgenics
You are setting yourself an illusory goal. Whatever it was that has made you so bitterly disappointed has left a nasty taste in your mouth and you feel that 'enough is enough'. You are sick of it all. Wouldn't it just be wonderful if you could retire to a desert island and turn your back on the past? But it's an illusion and you know it. [true for a number of things]
At this time you 'need to be needed' and again you 'need to need'. You have had this feeling for some time now and you are looking for someone who could share a close bond in an atmosphere of shared intimacy. You have the belief that with the right person you could conquer the world. [no intention to conquer the world]
It's the old old story - I am misunderstood - my partner (be it in your private life or in business) just doesn't understand me and YOU also believe at this time that you are being completely MISUNDERSTOOD by one and all. It then obviously follows that you naturally feel inhibited and not appreciated. It is perhaps because of this belief that you feel compelled to stand back and let the rest of the world go by. As for developing a firm relationship - inwardly deep down in your subconscious mind you are wary of even trying to get close to another person because you feel that if you open up your heart and feelings you are sure to get hurt. [i'm afraid of getting my partner hurt] Since you are living in a society where close relationships are the norm, you feel that there is that need to conform [naah, there isn't], but any close relationships of any magnitude that you may have tried in the past have unfortunately left you without any sense of emotional involvement.
Having experienced considerable disappointment of late and not knowing quite what to do about it this has led you to suffer a great deal of agitation and anxiety. You are trying very hard to make favourable impressions all round. You feel that you have a right to do anything that you wish without being condemned for your beliefs. [true for a few facets of my life, heh] Everything seems to be going against you and you feel helpless to change the situation. The possibility of failure is most upsetting and this situation is leading to untold stress. [you're telling me] You honestly believe that the situation is not of your making - it is not your fault - you have been misled and abused by those that you trusted, [naah, it was really my fault] but you are trying to look at the situation quite dispassionately. Would you perhaps not agree that this situation could be regarded as unrealistic self justification? [whatever, i didn't self-justify meself]
You are completely worn out - physically and mentally - and it has got to the stage where 'you don't want to participate anymore'. You are in fact experiencing what is known as 'burnout' and your reaction is such that you feel that everyone is against you yet you still seem to refuse to listen to reason. You are hostile, bitter and indignant. You insist that you want and are entitled to your own way - well maybe you are, but your attitude is not conducive to making friends. Take it easy. Let go and get back into the World.
At this time you 'need to be needed' and again you 'need to need'. You have had this feeling for some time now and you are looking for someone who could share a close bond in an atmosphere of shared intimacy. You have the belief that with the right person you could conquer the world. [no intention to conquer the world]
It's the old old story - I am misunderstood - my partner (be it in your private life or in business) just doesn't understand me and YOU also believe at this time that you are being completely MISUNDERSTOOD by one and all. It then obviously follows that you naturally feel inhibited and not appreciated. It is perhaps because of this belief that you feel compelled to stand back and let the rest of the world go by. As for developing a firm relationship - inwardly deep down in your subconscious mind you are wary of even trying to get close to another person because you feel that if you open up your heart and feelings you are sure to get hurt. [i'm afraid of getting my partner hurt] Since you are living in a society where close relationships are the norm, you feel that there is that need to conform [naah, there isn't], but any close relationships of any magnitude that you may have tried in the past have unfortunately left you without any sense of emotional involvement.
Having experienced considerable disappointment of late and not knowing quite what to do about it this has led you to suffer a great deal of agitation and anxiety. You are trying very hard to make favourable impressions all round. You feel that you have a right to do anything that you wish without being condemned for your beliefs. [true for a few facets of my life, heh] Everything seems to be going against you and you feel helpless to change the situation. The possibility of failure is most upsetting and this situation is leading to untold stress. [you're telling me] You honestly believe that the situation is not of your making - it is not your fault - you have been misled and abused by those that you trusted, [naah, it was really my fault] but you are trying to look at the situation quite dispassionately. Would you perhaps not agree that this situation could be regarded as unrealistic self justification? [whatever, i didn't self-justify meself]
You are completely worn out - physically and mentally - and it has got to the stage where 'you don't want to participate anymore'. You are in fact experiencing what is known as 'burnout' and your reaction is such that you feel that everyone is against you yet you still seem to refuse to listen to reason. You are hostile, bitter and indignant. You insist that you want and are entitled to your own way - well maybe you are, but your attitude is not conducive to making friends. Take it easy. Let go and get back into the World.
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
Save ________
That age old question:
IF you see your spouse and your mum (or dad) drowning, and you can only save one person, who would you save?
Answer:
If i jump into the waters, it'll probably be a worse dilemma for the next person to come along!
IF you see your spouse and your mum (or dad) drowning, and you can only save one person, who would you save?
Answer:
If i jump into the waters, it'll probably be a worse dilemma for the next person to come along!
Linguistically Speaking IV
小说 = small talk ?
oh, the joys of direct translation XDDD (ok, not really direct)
can't get enough of it XD
oh, the joys of direct translation XDDD (ok, not really direct)
can't get enough of it XD
Monday, January 15, 2007
Phew!
Phew! It's over! What a relief!
The past few days have seen me totally stressed out and appetite-less. I mean, i get hungry, but i can't seem to get anything down my throat. I keep telling myself that it's only a few bars but my body can't seem to understand that. Stress, stress, stress.
On that day itself [14*01*07, sunday], during the rehearsal, i got the solo parts right for the 1st time, but when it was the 2nd time everything was 超不准!! Had to mark the 6, 1, and 2 notes (G 调) on my erhu with liling's marker. Hah! And i didn't rehearse the shouxi custom, the whole walk-into-stage-after-everyone-is-seated and gesture-for-the-sheng-to-play-A-D-A part. Heck, i didn't even know it was ADA, asked the conducter at the 59th minute.
Luckily, nothing went awry during the actual performance. The qizhou was ok, except for the 1st page of 奔驰在千里草原, there was one part where i felt it was a bit 乱. Ok lah, no biggie. The xylophone was a little slow for 骏马奔驰, but well, guess we can overlook that.
Thanks to DY, HL, JY, YF, William, Wang Lau Shi, Mr Lee, all guest players and alumni! WHeeet! Success!!
Now i can rest easy. Hah~~~
Wait, no, there's still projects. &^%)&^)(*&_%*$!!!! T-T
The past few days have seen me totally stressed out and appetite-less. I mean, i get hungry, but i can't seem to get anything down my throat. I keep telling myself that it's only a few bars but my body can't seem to understand that. Stress, stress, stress.
On that day itself [14*01*07, sunday], during the rehearsal, i got the solo parts right for the 1st time, but when it was the 2nd time everything was 超不准!! Had to mark the 6, 1, and 2 notes (G 调) on my erhu with liling's marker. Hah! And i didn't rehearse the shouxi custom, the whole walk-into-stage-after-everyone-is-seated and gesture-for-the-sheng-to-play-A-D-A part. Heck, i didn't even know it was ADA, asked the conducter at the 59th minute.
Luckily, nothing went awry during the actual performance. The qizhou was ok, except for the 1st page of 奔驰在千里草原, there was one part where i felt it was a bit 乱. Ok lah, no biggie. The xylophone was a little slow for 骏马奔驰, but well, guess we can overlook that.
Thanks to DY, HL, JY, YF, William, Wang Lau Shi, Mr Lee, all guest players and alumni! WHeeet! Success!!
Now i can rest easy. Hah~~~
Wait, no, there's still projects. &^%)&^)(*&_%*$!!!! T-T
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
suuuuuuuuuuuucks
It was past midnight.
My mum came into the study.
"Not sleeping?" she asked. "Is that due tomorrow?"
"No", i said, clicking about in Dreamweaver. It was due yesterday.
My mum came into the study.
"Not sleeping?" she asked. "Is that due tomorrow?"
"No", i said, clicking about in Dreamweaver. It was due yesterday.
Thursday, January 04, 2007
今
a rosy outlook on my life at the current coordinates. the graph that started at (0,0)[1987] with a sketchy line drawn up to "shuqun primary school", continuing up to "swiss cottage secondary school", and then for a brief time "jurong junior college" before spanning across the (nearly) 3 years of slacking studying at singapore polytechnic. right after the line travels to "graduation", i'll find myself at the next set of coordinates marked "unemployment". unless someone above decides to mark "death" first. yay.
yesterday saw the 2nd last practice before the big day. the concert was postponed and postponed [oh yeah, the brother of the long P word i'm very well acquainted with] until 2007. if they had postponed it any longer, i would be considered "alumni" already. well, what can i say, the dazu songs lian until quite lan already, and the erhu qizhou songs... well 7788 lah, more or less. the hu guess players are quite "zai" but we need to get the coordination right [yeah yeah, i come into the picture here, obviously, i can't lead], need to sync with the yangqin as well. yay. i'm the shouxi of 3 SPCO hu players [including myself] and a host of guest players. in fact, they make up the majority. *smiles* well, it's duo kui ta men for this concert. *bows* thanks to ye all!!
yay! i'm all set to screw up the concert! feel my optimism!!
yesterday saw the 2nd last practice before the big day. the concert was postponed and postponed [oh yeah, the brother of the long P word i'm very well acquainted with] until 2007. if they had postponed it any longer, i would be considered "alumni" already. well, what can i say, the dazu songs lian until quite lan already, and the erhu qizhou songs... well 7788 lah, more or less. the hu guess players are quite "zai" but we need to get the coordination right [yeah yeah, i come into the picture here, obviously, i can't lead], need to sync with the yangqin as well. yay. i'm the shouxi of 3 SPCO hu players [including myself] and a host of guest players. in fact, they make up the majority. *smiles* well, it's duo kui ta men for this concert. *bows* thanks to ye all!!
yay! i'm all set to screw up the concert! feel my optimism!!
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
Pre-Hypothesis
the number of people in a shop is inversely proportionate to the price of the items
people tend to have left partings (hair)
[that's all for now, my bed turns into yam cake if i don't sleep by 12 (when i'm not doing homework)]
[note: first post this year! XD]
people tend to have left partings (hair)
[that's all for now, my bed turns into yam cake if i don't sleep by 12 (when i'm not doing homework)]
[note: first post this year! XD]
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